Summertime Blue

Not plural.

I think I'm depressed. I have no motivation to do anything, anyway, and I rarely find myself smiling. Not real smiles, anyway. Those fake, plastic-looking ones that never quite reach one's eyes (turns out, humans can't move those muscles consciously. It's a dead-giveaway for a fake smile. I've been found out, or could be) are all that I can seem to generate, and even those seem to come more and more infrequently.

This weekend we're to go to Albany to stay with Ryan's (Evan's roommate's) cousin Robert. I had fun last time, but I can't get excited to go again. We went to the movies last night, but a combination of my preexisting ill-humor and the fact that we were watching Shrek Forever After did not yield a fun time.

I dunno. Maybe I'll feel right as rain soon, but for today, I don't. Or yesterday. Or the day before that. Or for a while now, going back to when UVM was still in session. This past semester really sucked, but I haven't gotten out of my bad mood from it. On a (most probably) more correct note, I think that I was in a bad mood then because my courses either weren't challenging, weren't informative or were decidedly too difficult (here, I use decidedly to mean that the professor had decided to make the course harder than it normally would have been.), and I am in a bad mood now from a combination of boredom and other things that I shan't discuss here (no one really needs to air their dirty laundry. It can just be washed and then left to dry up. I wash regularly, so I guess I just need to dry up at this point).

I dunno. Maybe life is supposed to be boring.

I dunno. Maybe my life just happens to be boring.

This isn't boring:

As an aside, I don't really like the new YouTube layout. I understand why they have changed it (and here, that isn't just a vague statement. I actually do understand why they did it), but I still must admit that it is less ... ... ... something. Maybe it's just less.

Also, sorry it's been so long since I've posted. Before I was too busy to say anything, and now I find I've nothing to say.

So I'll stop saying it.

After a thousand years and an ice age, it seems...

I'm not a very good blogger in the respect that I often forget to blog for long periods of time. I know that a really committed blogger would make sure to take time out each day/week/whatever to blog about his/her life, but sometimes I get so caught up in experiencing life that I forget that I can share what I am experiencing. Sharing would detract from the experience, as it were.

Anyway, I am not on here to ramble to you in a confused and confusing way. Let's talk life.

Classes: suck. I am rather disappointed in what UVM is giving me to deal with this semester. All of my classes are important, sure, but I feel that they are being presented in such a way that I shall never be inclined to much like them. I do enjoy Mr. Lawlor in calculus, because he has the most cleanly colorful expressions. "If you treat this equation like a fine lady" or "If you watch this expression like a hawk, and compare it to that one over there".

Friends: all okay, or at least the ones that still talk to me -_-. That's not a worthwhile story, but it's an earful and will probably cause a headache to the listener. Ho hum.

Life: seems worth it. It might as well be, because I only get this one so I want to enjoy it a bit more.

I have decided that I am going to study abroad in Japan, but I don't know if I will go my Junior spring or Senior spring. If I go as a Junior it could set me way behind, but if I go as a senior I might only have to stay one extra semester or maybe one year. But it would be worth it. I won't have another opportunity like this to go live in Japan for about 15 weeks so I want to take advantage.

Finally, a video! I have known about it for a while, but don't think I've shared it. Sorry if I have!